July 11, 2014 02:28 AM

        Well This is going to be my first entry of my new journal. I am still as sad and brokenhearted as every and still as lost without her and the kids. I can't live without them, I don't know anyway I can do it. Every single day and every single breath is so hard and I just can't take it anymore. I heard from Mike, I don't know how he always knows when I am in trouble but he does. I got his package today from Kwan Si's  shop in Chinatown. It had all the medicinals in it I need along with , well some other things He thought I would want but I really wish he had not sent them.  Anyway there are enough things going through my head right now and I just can't really think straight. Where ever you are baby I love you and the kids.