August 22, 2014 02:15 AM
This week has totally sucked, ended up having to replace the water pump on the truck which i can't really afford. Thank god I have the friends that I do. Kurt showed up the other day with the new pump I still had not figured out how I was going to swing getting it and he had taken his step daughters car over and junked it and he had the money so he picked me up the pump. Well we got it in and I was leaving the sealant set over night. Well there wasn't anymore leak so that is fixed. Then today on the way up to my therapy appt. trying to run the fan to have some air moving discovered the only thing that would come out was hot air, really hot air.so Loki and I had a real miserable trip up and back home. The heat index hit 109 today.figured out what that problem was working out in the heat so in the morning ill go up and get a vacuum hose and plug set and start tracing down lines and sealing of stuff so I know the actuator is getting sufficient pressure to function.
You know thinking about my friends I Have to think about my Lisa as well. even the men I have chosen as friends are much like me. I never really gave it much thought to be honest. She never believed anyone could ever love another's children as much as their own until she saw that I loved her kids as much as she did. That I would give up and sacrifice and do whatever i had to got those kids and each one of my closest friends are the same way. Whether it is Dave, Rory or Kurt each of us accepted and loved another man's children as our own to love and cherish and take into our lives as though we were their natural fathers. And of all of us Dave was the only once to have been a natural father.the other three of us never have nor will we ever father a child yet we know the love and joy of being a parent even if it has been torn away from me. Doesn't really mean anything writing this down other than I had not really taken it into account before and thought it was worth noting. It's late and I hurt so much bother physically and mentally. I miss her so much. I love her and the kids so very much and I hope she knows it. Good night my beloved. I love you.
You know thinking about my friends I Have to think about my Lisa as well. even the men I have chosen as friends are much like me. I never really gave it much thought to be honest. She never believed anyone could ever love another's children as much as their own until she saw that I loved her kids as much as she did. That I would give up and sacrifice and do whatever i had to got those kids and each one of my closest friends are the same way. Whether it is Dave, Rory or Kurt each of us accepted and loved another man's children as our own to love and cherish and take into our lives as though we were their natural fathers. And of all of us Dave was the only once to have been a natural father.the other three of us never have nor will we ever father a child yet we know the love and joy of being a parent even if it has been torn away from me. Doesn't really mean anything writing this down other than I had not really taken it into account before and thought it was worth noting. It's late and I hurt so much bother physically and mentally. I miss her so much. I love her and the kids so very much and I hope she knows it. Good night my beloved. I love you.
No comments:
Post a Comment