Sleep

July 14, 2014 01:02 AM

            You know with each passing day my depression grows worse. I seem to sleep more and more to avoid my life. Both Loki and I slept most of the weekend. Even he has an even harder time waking me up. I havent eaten in several days and i dont have any appetite at all.maybe this will end up being my final gift to her. I don't even remember the last time I even used my cpap machine it has been so long ago, I guess part of me feels that she was the one that found the fact that i stop breathing in my sleep it would some how be fitting that perhaps i should die that way. I tin part of me keeps hoping that will happen so I am spared any more of this. As my mom put it, I am not afraid and i am more then ready. I am just so tired.